LEARNING TO SWIM

When I was 7 years old, my family took a vacation to Durban, South Africa. At the time we were living in Rhodesia (now Zimbabwe) …on the border of Zambia. We kids were so excited to be able to splash in water that was actually safe to be in…no crocodiles.

I had not learned to actually swim yet, but could paddle around while lying on the inflatable pool raft. We were playing in and around a lagoon separated from the ocean. I had carefully gauged where the water was shallow enough to stand. I knew that I could get off the raft at a particular spot, then walk to shore.

My parents and brothers were lounging on shore while I happily jumped on my raft and paddled with my hands out into deep water. Soon I decided to paddle back. When I got to the spot shallow enough for my feet to touch, I slid off my protective raft.

Fear gripped me when I realized, I could not touch bottom. I had misgauged! Not one to panic easily, I started to clamber back onto the safety of my raft. As the raft flipped over on me, I decided it was time to panic! Gripping tightly to the raft and kicking wildly, I began to scream for help.

I was dismayed to see my parents making no move to help me. (I didn’t know till later, they did not hear my cries for help). Conflicting feelings of not being important enough for my parents to rescue made my struggles more challenging.

Then I saw my older brother, swim fins and mask on, beginning to paddle out to me. He took hold of my raft pulling it and me to solid ground! Poor Mark, he was always rescuing me…from not letting me pet the elephants when I was five, to grabbing me as I slipped on a precarious trail around Victoria Falls.

As I remember this time, I am reminded how often I have jumped into spiritual practices before I was ready. I have had teachers that have rescued me and showed me how to be patient. Protect first, then meditate, then learn to work with chakras, crystals, auras and healing. Then Readings, then Mediumship…then Channeling with Mediumship.

In the almost 20 years I have been on my spiritual quest, I have grown so I am now faced with times of rescuing others that jump in the deep waters before they are ready to swim. Dark energies must be removed that have grown to hinder their path, simply because they did not learn to protect themselves before diving in.

I am honored to be able to help. My hope is that I can help others avoid some of my pitfalls by hearing my story, so you can learn to swim FAST! We need you all…healers, mediums, psychics and spiritual advisors.

I was thrilled (and a little proud) of one of my students that has worked with me for the last two years. She has taken most of my classes, had private session, and most importantly…done her homework. Recently in my Advanced Psychic Development Class, she did an amazing job of channeling. It was the first time she had channeled, but not the first time doing spiritual work.

I am blessed to have my work be my passion and joy. My next Beginning Psychic Development Classes starts Wed. the 23^rd. They run for five weeks.

You can read on my website about them and the others. I also teach one on one, or small groups of friends that gather…either in person or on the phone…making distance, no object.

DEPTHS OF ILLUMINATION

I am filled with ripples of sadness. Life is supposed to be one of joy, yet the more I try to stay positive and grateful, the harder things become.

Finally, I cry out, “I give up! I don’t want this life of anguish any more. Help me, God, Divine, Universe, Angels…Whoever! I am letting go of control!”

Immediately waves of sorrow crash over my body wracking it with inconceivable pain. A weight above my head pushes me below the surface of the dark waters of my mind. Fear overtakes me as air flees my lungs. I flay my arms and legs, thrashing the murky threatening water into a raging torrent of foam. I have no strength left to fight this invisible foe. The roaring clamor like a rushing freight train fills my ears.

“This is what it must feel like to die,” comes my frantic thought.

The weight above me…the combined worries of my life…have overtaken me at last. The air in my lungs is depleted. I know the next breath will fill my lungs with the darkness of my inner self and I will die. This is the moment that I relax and stop fighting.

It is then that I hear a voice say, “Open your eyes.”

I obey and see in front of me a beautiful face. She is the most exquisite creation I have even beheld. The radiance around her makes her appear as if she were illuminated by an inner light.

She takes my hands in hers and says, “Look at me and relax. You can breathe the waters around me in safety.”

Knowing the only options are to thrash about until my lungs burst or trust this beautiful being, I do as she instructs.

As if in a trace, I lock eyes with her and I am immediately lost in the warmth and depth of her love. With nothing to lose except fear, I take a deep breath filling my lungs with the murky waters around me. To my surprise, tingles of joy filter throughout my body. The water feels more nurturing to me than the fresh breeze drifting over the ocean. I breathe out and then in again as I am filled with the wonder of this miracle. My face must have mirrored my surprise.

She looks at me and smiles, “You asked for Divine help and I am here. You are breathing in all aspects of who you are. As long as you continue to give up control and allow me to guide you, you will be safe. Breathe in all parts of who you are, and draw strength from your ‘dark’ side, without drawing the negative aspect of that part. Come, let us go deeper.”

For a moment, I felt the edge of fear intruding and then recognize it as the negative aspect of my ‘dark side’. I know it is not a part of me that I wish to embrace, so I go deeper with my companion.

Hand in hand we swim through the depths. I encounter indescribable colors illuminated with intense lights. These components of my being had been submerged by my own fear.

“I have seen some of these things before, but they were previously ugly and dull,” I say to my guide.

Her musical laugher reminds me of a tinkling waterfall. “Look at yourself,” she replies. “Your inner light is shining on those things, making them gleam with brightness.”

I look at myself and see I now am shinning with the same luminosity as my companion who continues to hold my hand. My light is shinning on those things that had once held a place of fear within my soul. It brings forth the beauty in them as it ignites my spirit with joy!

“Take what is good as you swim to the surface. You can return at anytime to draw power from this part of yourself. Fear can never hold you down, for you have explored the darkest depths of your soul and returned a more powerful and peaceful person,” my companion clarifies.

She swims with me to the surface and I take a deep breath of pure oxygen from the air.

“I will be with you whenever you need me to infuse you with Divine Light. Just take one more breath,” she says.

I take a deep breath and brilliant lights explode around me permeating my vision with exquisite rainbows. I am saturated with more joy, laughter and happiness than I have ever experienced. I feel the essence of my companion’s Divine warmth and love inside my mind, body and spirit, though her being is no longer in my sight.

From this day forward I will glow with an inner radiance of Divine Light. This empowers me to illuminate all dark and fearful areas of myself and others. United we can all reflect the warm glow of Divinity and bring peace and joy to the world.


~Archangel Anael~ through Morgana Starr 2010

ANGELIC ASSISTANCE

Swimming through the Seas of Uncertainty causes many fatalities when one relies only on oneself. In order to get to the other side of life all must cross this Sea.

As you swim your strength begins to leave you and you realize you are not progressing. You are only treading water. There feels as if there is a weight within you that threatens to pull you to the depths and drown you. Weariness floods every part of your body and spirit.

Just then you see someone above you that seems to effortlessly skim across the surface of the Sea. When you cry out for assistance, she calls to you, “Look! There is your angel, ask her for help!”

As you look around you see a beautiful being of Light just above the water. You wonder how long she had been there and why you had not seen her before. As you continue to tread water, barely keeping afloat, you ask the angel, “Will you help me please?”

The compassion and love is evident in the smiling eyes of this shining being. “I was waiting for you to ask, my dearest one,” comes her answer. “When you remember the oneness of all, you become one with your own uncertainties. Only by diving to the depths of your soul and swimming through your own doubts and fears will you be able to release what no longer serves your growth.”

Panic rises up in you as you know you have no strength to deal with it on your own. Just as a wave washes over you and you begin to go under, you feel the arms and wings of your angel around you. Peace and power begins to pervade your spirit and body. With angelic strength inside you, you dive deep. Curiously you are aware that the angel energy has enabled you to able to breathe in the blackened depths of the Sea.

The angelic light within you shines outwards so you now can clearly see how your fears have functioned as anchors weighting you down. They have kept you in the depths of despair and agony. Your angel shows you how to release them one by one. Joy floods through your spirit!

In the next moment, you find yourself at the top of the Sea of Uncertainty once more. As your angel puts her arms around you, she flies behind you, lifting you higher. You are now able to ride the tops of waves with your Spiritual family, being held by your angel. You notice that each person that is above the waves is held by an angel.

The Sea of Uncertainty is still there, but you travel above it. You know you never have to dive into it again. You notice other people treading water with desperation on their face. Hovering above them is a shining angel of Light, eyes full of compassion and love. Those people do not seem to be aware that their salvation is within their reach if they only see and ask for help.

Now you understand your purpose. You are one of the many that will help others see and connect with their angel for their deliverance.

May you see your angel, release your fears and fill your spirit with joy. Then come and join us as we ride the waves of life, skimming over the Seas of Uncertainty, being supported by our angels!

Archangel Anael through Morgana Starr June 2009